sometimes you can feel people stop caring about you and thats why i dont want to get close to anyone ever again
Hello old sport my name old sport is Jay old sport Gatsby old sport
Please Dont Read This
I just have to get this off my chest.
I’m just too much of a free spirit. That’s why no relationship can last long with me. I move on too fast. I don’t mean to :( I’ve lost a lot of good friends because of that. Maybe I’m just not meant to be in peoples lives long term. I’m just an experience. I feel like I’ve outlived my welcome here. I’m sorry…
What scares me the most is that everytime I try to explain that to someone it sounds like a suicide note. Its not though, well maybe. I guess the me you knew is dying
Ive hurt everyone I’ve ever loved. And I don’t believe I’m worth it.
I wish someone could get me. I wish I could be honest. Let the walls down. But I won’t.
I’m a manipulative, selfish, lying, stealing, cheating, stubborn user. That’s what behind the walls. But there a lot of good too. I swear. I’m compassionate, talented, creative understanding, strong, smart, beautiful girl. But its not enough. It doesn’t make up for it. My core is bad. I’m not gonna make it. I’m scared. Its bigger than I am. I think my heart is rotten but to change the walls would have to come down . I caant. I’m being really honest here. I feel so exposed because you know this now. But I’m sure u already did, but wanted to hear it from me.
I’m sorry. I’m not worth fixing.